I know I haven't been updating a lot, but life has been a little hectic lately! I graduated from college, moved all my things (and all my boyfriends things!) to my parent's house, and since then I've been trying to get all the wedding stuff ready in time for next Saturday. I can't believe I'll be married in a week! Right now I feel like I'm in this strange limbo. I always kind of feel like a little kid when I stay with my parents, but I've been living on my own for so long that I still feel like an adult. I'm ready to be married, and have my own home, to take care of my husband and have him take care of me. I'm ready to make curtains and buy furniture and cook dinners. It's still weird to me that I will have to wait a whole month after we're married to do those things! I am looking forward to seeing all of Kevin's family and friends in Arizona, and I'm
really looking forward to our honeymoon in Hawaii! I know everything will happen very quickly - I can't believe how fast the last two years have flown by.
Last Saturday, three incredible women threw me a beautiful shower. I've never even been to a wedding shower before, much less had one myself, and it was really fun! I'll try to post pictures sometime this week. We finished all the thank you notes last night, and are still organizing gifts - I can't believe the support we've gotten from friends and family. It will make our move to Connecticut so much easier. We actually have silverware that matches now! And color coordinated kitchen supplies!
Michael and Flower moved into their own apartment, and while I think it's really good for them, I still miss having little Miguel around. Luckily, we've been babysitting a lot while they get all settled in, so I haven't had to go a whole day without seeing him yet. Whenever I hold him, though, I think about how far away I'll be later on this summer, and I can't help but wonder how big he'll be the next time I come home.
Sometimes when I think about how far away I'll be and how many loans we had to take out and how long we have to postpone having children, I start to have second thoughts about going to Yale. But the thing is, I know that I'll end up with a job I love, and I know that Kevin and I will love exploring the east coast. I know that three years isn't too long to wait to have kids and that if Kevin is 38 versus 36 when we start, it won't make that big of a difference. It's just a scary thing, moving to a place I've never seen to start a program I have almost no experience in. I'm so blessed to be able to take my best friend with me. That makes all the difference in the world.